Excitement vs. Anxiety

Have you ever began a new project and jumped in head first, elated, joyful and hopeful only to feel a few days later the creeping feelings of doubt, worry & fear?

It's taken me a while to realize & embody that excitement and anxiety are neighbors. Both are visceral. Both are providers of information. But only one moves me forward in personal growth at a faster speed.

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This week we have a full harvest moon in Pisces, one of the most emotionally charged & sensitive signs in the zodiac. This full moon in a water sign brings with it psychic sensibility, heightened sensitivity & opportunity for compassion & self-love (𝘳𝘦: 𝘋𝘰𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘺 𝘔𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘢𝘯, 𝘈𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘨𝘦𝘳)

Because of the emotionally charged energy that Pisces brings with it as well as the effects of Neptune & Uranus doing their dance, it is an easy trap to get caught up with unhelpful thinking. I am noting when old ways of being show up for me & I falsely label myself as simply anxious.

My biggest lie I tell myself which causes the feelings of anxiety is that my emotions (or ideas) aren't valid. This habitual thinking drops my vibration. And by labeling it as anxiety, I am only tip toeing on the surface of what's really underneath:

My fear of not being heard

My fear of not being good enough

What is underneath my anxiety is an emotion: Fear. And from identifying that emotion I can work with it instead of avoiding it. I am committed to acknowledging when this thinking shows up and make a choice to work through it.

When I am working on an exciting project, of course I will experience a variety of emotions. But the movement in my belly, the faster heart rate, the energy I feel - it doesn't need or 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 to be labeled as anxiety but instead as excitement & vitality.

Your first thought about yourself or a situation is what you are conditioned and taught to think. Your second thought is a choice. And so what you do with your day, week, month, year is all up to you. The thoughts will come, the brain will do what it does: think; and you do not have to believe in the first thought or doubt, whatever your lie is you tell yourself. Instead, what do you want your second thought to be?

I am committed to take notice when unhelpful thoughts & old ways of being show up and get in the way, muddying up my excitement. Feelings and thoughts of unworthiness, doubt & worry may arise especially with this month's planetary influences of Neptune & Uranus. And its up to me to wash & clean them away with the first step being awareness that these unhelpful thought patterns are there in the first place.

Step two is to acknowledge & remember what is it that I am working so hard for. With the full moon opposed to Sun & Mars (our personal, ego-based planets that are rooted in Earth of Virgo season) and conjunct with Neptune (the planet that rules spiritual growth & divine connection) this is a powerful time to receive higher guidance, to spark creativity for spiritual growth and to connect to the divine inspiration that exists all around you!

It is a powerful time to set a clear intention and visualize what it is your are manifesting as well. Working on all the pragmatic earth element details like planning & journaling is necessary & grounding and it is also important to energetically and emotionally walk into life as you desire it to be.

You can use the energy of this full moon to envision walking into the reality you want for your life. It's a shift in perspective & a shift in consciousness that brings all life's gifts to us. Carve out some 'you' time and actually step into that possibility within your mind. Get quiet. Take a few grounding breaths. Set an intention for your day, month, whatever. Phrase it in positive language, like its ALREADY THE TRUTH (because it is, and will be). And visualize what it is you want. ⁠What do you see? Who is there? What do you smell? And most importantly: how do you feel?⁠ Channel your excitement for this new reality that is coming your way to raise your vibration even higher.

Energetically align yourself with that potential through calming your mind, fostering excitement over your dreams & embodying the you you already are and are becoming. Let that excitement & higher vibration work its way through you.

And remember: You. Got. This. Because All is Coming (and soon!). xx

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